In 2010 I was living in California post divorce in someone else's home and trying to sort out what to do next. As a Healing Key Way Practitioner I continue to do my personal healing so I can be the best person to assist others. In February 2010 during a session where I was the client, the story was how I did not fit in California. My higher Self was telling me to go home. My ego argued with my higher Self that I had no home. In truth my home is in Northwest where I had lived for more that 25 years. I listened and started packing. I did not have a place to live or a source of income other than a few clients. And I was going.
Upon arriving home, I put most of my things in storage and asked friends if I could stay with them. The original plan did not work out and the back up plan became my home for the next seven months. I was grateful, so grateful. I found work that was supposed to be seasonal that became my Part time almost full time job for the next five years. I worked in a garden center for a large big box store, later became a florist. My incredible generous friends treated me like a special guest and allowed me to sort out my life.
After being a guest for 7 months I started looking for a situation where I could live and work for my keep. I started looking for placements and told friends. Within a few days I was offered a room in a friends residence that also had business use. For my rent I agreed to clean and garden. I cleaned and gardened for the next two and a half years. Meantime I paid off my debts and kept doing sessions as a client and a practitioner. Around year two, I re-read "Ask and it is Given" by Esther Hicks. This had me do an exercise on getting what I want. However even before the actual assignment I had some work to do with me.
When I left Spokane upon my impending divorce I had money, quite a bit of money. Over the next five years I spent all my money and acquired a lot of debt. The work to do was forgiving myself for spending/losing my money. I had shamed myself into a conversation of being bad and unworthy. Working through this took some time. Understanding that money is a form of energy and I had used my energy up. I also had years of conversations from my 31 year marriage that money was me and visa versa. Money is wonderful but it is not me nor am I it. I freed my identity from the idea that money made me who I am. After forgiving myself for the choices I had made I decided I was a worthy person and I wanted a home.
From the "Ask and It Is Given" book I had more work to do to discover how to get a home. The exercise I did was to write on a full page all of the reasons I wanted a home. I wrote things like "I want a home so I can have a garden." and "I want a home so I can entertain." I wrote everything I could think of filling the front side of the page. Part two is turn the page over and write all the reasons why I deserved a home. This part of the exercise really stretched me and I made up all kinds of strange reasons including ..."because I am a white light being." After writing this page I put it away occasionally reading it over. Always when reviewing or thinking about my home with GRATITUDE and LOVE while being in the feeling of living there. The Joy and love I had filled me just thinking about my home.
It should be mentioned not in any part of my want list was there things about bedrooms or garages. None of the details were included on things like location or bathrooms. I only wrote about the things I wanted and then I focused on how it felt having them. My heart filled love for all the things my home provided. When there is no resistance for the person spirit can provide and that is exactly what happened.